GRUNGE; ROCK THE WORLD

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

I feel like a doormat. Always there but seldom remembered. There when needed but if not, just ignored.

Sophie, I was there when you needed someone to talk to, someone to pray with, wasn't I?
Dayna, I was there when you needed someone to complain to, someone to talk to, wasn't I?
Sharmaine, I was there when you were sad, when you needed comforting, wasn't I?
Kar Yee, Wei Tieng, Jia Yi, Yue Qi, a fellow classmate, teammate, PSL and housemate, aren't I?

I'm always forgotten... never remembered... Is that all I mean to you all? A spare? A lifejacket? An extra? Am I of that little importance? Would any of you even care if I go outside the classroom, to the railing and jumped? Don't get me wrong, I'm not so stupid as to kill myself, just saying for the example. So, would you?

Today, we had to choose the groups for the Jan 19th thing right, everytime it's like divided into "more popular" and "less popular". I never have any say in the groupings, its always just decided by someone else, or should I say someones. Do you know how frustrating that is? Huh? HUH?!
Do you know why I was covering mouth, or did none of you even notice... I think it shuld be the latter right. Anyway I was. And it was because I have to go to extreme lengths to stop myself from swearing. When I can't vent my anger, I just start crying. Do I really have to let everyone see me cry? Do you know how pathetic that is? Huh?!
I really felt like punching something...

I suddenly realise why I love books so much. It's 'cause I can enter a world which is not my own. I can live a perfect life in that world. I can have a happy ending because reality is really that different.

Where is my happy ending? There isn't one is there.

posted @ 7:31 PM |